Can anyone give me info on how to add permalinks to my BLOG and how to get GOOGLE to archive my site by posts rather than whole pages?

Thanks in advance.

Found this intersting link on a young comic book shop owner: 18 year old comic shop owner. Hmm...perhaps Karma does speak to me.

I thought I lost you somewhere. But you were never really there at all. And I want to get free. --Goo Goo Dolls

I don't know why I keep searching for something I've never found. These weeds get deeper when I turn around...and I can feel it. This space between us. --Life of Agony

The comic book shop really apeals to me (see previous post). Maybe selling books is a part of my future. I've been thinking about it all day. Perhaps, an online venture to get me started might be in order. But what would I do?

My monitor is on the blink. I can't quite get it to adjust right so my screen looks like an hour glass almost. It's making me feel queezy. Seriously.

I'm still waiting for Feedster to index the BLOGS that I want to test it with. Hopefully by this weekend I'll be up and running.

Work is a disater right now. They are reogranizing our products, our departments, and our company and of coure pee-ons aren't privy to info. Moral is low. Really low. Time to start working on plan B.

Good news: On my diet I have lost fourty pounds now. Bad news: I can't eat after 7 pm which is when I get my dinner/lunch break at work. This is killing me. I'm so hungry. To keep from eating I go look in the mirror and see how much I still need to lose and that helps. And of course flushes my self esteem down the drain. But it doesn't cure the fact that even after having taken an "EAT LESS" pill I am still starving.

I love Wednesdays. Hump day. Also, new comic book day. Well not every Wednesday but most.

The smell of comic shops. All the different comics, trades, graphic novels, cards, toys, games, magazines, manga, and the like. MMM.....comics. Maybe I was meant to be a shop owner. I could hang out in the shop all day.

I have a vision of the kind of shop I would like to own that would carry all the mainstream stuff but also select independents/alternative press comics as well. I might even retail good comics published out of people's homes with a copy machine. Not sure if they'd sell but it would be nice to give them a chance. I'd retail books. And have a great website with good ordering ability. The shop would have a catalog so vast collectors would come from miles around. I'd love to have a reading room too of some sort in it where meetings could be held: RPG games, book readings, etc. Another possibility: melding the idea of a coffee shop and a comic book shop together. Not much of a market for shops here in Akron now but you never know what the future could hold.

Yesterday, I picked up the new issue of The Losers which as always was great. I also bought the last issue of Ministy of Space by Warren Ellis. The other two issues of it were published before I had even heard of Mr. Ellis. I can only say that the comic blew me away and I hope there is a sequel. Essentially, the premise of the story is that Britain won the space race years ago and has launched colony ships to Mars. Warren's alternate reality is so real you can taste it. I'll have to purchase the trade paper back when it comes out. Speaking of trades, Looking forward to the Orbiter trade due in mid-May.

Also outlining an idea for another scifi graphic novel. The book tentative titled Hallowed is about a religious group who is sent in a cryogenic equipped Star Ship to terraform and colonize a world that is seventy five years from Earth. The only problem: when they arrive it's already been colonized by human 'warlords' who arrived fifteen years prior because Jump Ships were invented that travel at light speed. The War Lords aren't leaving. And after they enslave the New Comers they plan to conquer the rest of human space.

Decided I will begin to write out all these different ideas I have for comics and what not. Doesn't matter if I can write a complete script. I think more will come to me as I give life to the pieces- parts in my head.

What comics are you reading currently? Which ones do you recommend? I am reading The Losers, Y the Last Man, Bite Club,and most of Warren Ellis's material. Also collecting the trades of Transmetropolitan and The Sandman. I'd like to start reading a super hero book again too. Not sure which one. It has to be good. Can someone recommend one of those? Believe it or not, I miss those types of stories from my youth. Something where the good guy wins in the end but the story isn't some old crap cliche.

What am I doing awake this early in the morning?

Companies battle for Web messaging revenue.

Interesting article about the future of online messaging. The freight forwarder that we own has messaging installed so that everyone in the office and offsite can talk to each other without picking up a phone. Very good idea. I'm hoping my own company incorprates that idea someday. There are a lot of situations at work when I'm on the phone with a customer and another one calls needing something that isn't as important. I could just text the person he's talking too and tell them what he needs or ask them to help him that kind of thing....

Avoiding Burnout - Career Advice Article

Though I wish this article was indepth, it has a very intersting point. One I've been thinking alot about lately myself. When people do what they were not designed to do they evenually break. In my own life, I'm still trying to figure out what is I want to be when I grow up.

High court hears arguments on Cheney task force.

Good article on the Cheney task force that recommended opening up the Alaska Wildlife Refuge to drilling. Even more interesting, Supreme Court Scalia and Cheney took a duck hunting trip together earlier this year. Yet now, we ask Scalia to make an impartial decision on this case.

Metallica Vault

Don't stop me now. I'm on a roll. My daily web crawls lead me to this site that I had forgotten about. You need the CD key from 'St Anger' to get an account. Some very cool stuff and more to come it looks like. Includes the MP3 I'm about to download, 'Seek and Deystroy: Live' with Jason singing.

Metallica's Hammett Talks About The 'Challenging' Nature Of St. Anger.

Good piece on what I consider to be a good album that harkens back to the glory days of the musical goliath that is Metallica. Also, an intersting blurb about Jason Newstead (king of all basists).

Gene Simmons Films Video For 'Firestarter'

Weren't we just talking about KISS? This article talks a little bit about Gene's knew solo album which includes a cover of Orgy's "Firestarter" (this might be very cool) and appearances and/or music written with Bruce Kulick, Eric Singer, Frank Zappa, and Dave "Foo Fighters" Navarro. If anyone picks it up or hears anything from it let me know.

I've just recently discovered ORGY and I must say that I really like what I've heard so far.

SatelliteBands.net lets bands post banner adds on a variety of websites while letting viewers play MP3's from artist right from the banner add. Excellent!

Bowie: Please Remix My Songs.

Calling all armchair DJ's. You can remix David Bowie songs and win fabulous prizes too!

Maybe if you choke me hard enough.
I can finally hold still.

Lost feelings return. So now maybe I can learn to stop the world on a lie. This time around. Are we, are we, are we ourselves?...And do we really know? --The FIXX

Erase what was. Stillborn I have become. The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone. I've waited here for you for so very long. So long. Waited here for you. --Black Label Society

I should be sleeping. But I can't rest my mind....again. I keep dreaming he's coming back to get me. To take me home. To hold me, so I stop crying.

But we all know, the dead do not walk again. And now my brain burns with the fire of thought and wish and thoughts that can not lie still.

A few days ago, I finished reading Shadow Puppets by Orscon Scott Card. It's is quite simply put: a powerful read. Page 371 contained my favorite passage, it is an epitaph:

Born crippled in body and spirit. He changed the face of the world. Among all the hearts he broke. And lives he ended far too young. Were his own heart. And his own life. May he find peace.

I had another thought about what I was telling you about George earlier. There is one more ingredient to success. It's the one that I am missing. Some people call it: FOCUS. Single minded focus. I call it: impossible.

I'm going to close my eyes now. Maybe my Head-Brain can find some peace too. At least for a little while. Or maybe the pot will overflow and my brain will explode all over the wall. A mind can only contain so much and I'm not sleeping.

You used to beg me to take care of things. And smile at the thought of me failing. But long before having hurt, I'd send the pain below...much like suffocating. --Chevelle

Cruising through my morning emails I found a couple of though provoking gems.

The first was an amazing quote from John Gardner: "We pay a heavy price for our fear of failure. It is a powerful obstacle to growth. It assures the progressive narrowing of the personality and prevents exploration and experimentation. There is no learning without some difficulty and fumbling. If you want to keep on learning, you must keep on risking failure - all your life."

Can't add much to that other than it's absolutely true. I'm finally starting to grow up (at nearly 32 years old). I want to try everything I can and learn. It took a long time for me to learn it's okay to try and fail. What is not okay, is to live life unlived. To never attempt. It's amazing what we learn when we immerse our in new projects. For example, looks like I'm terrible at HTML and web design, etc. However, I've learned enough of it to keep and maintain this nice looking BLOG. I can add and change my own links and messages on it. Post pictures here. That kind of thing. I've also come to understand search engines and how they rank as well. I learned all this through starting a journal that was really an outlet for my creativity and my writing. But so much more I have learned from it.

The second gem that I found was from my daily CNN news email: Ben Stein has held many titles in his career from trial lawyer to White House speech writer to game show host. Recently he has turned his talents to writing, penning a self-help series. The latest book is called "How to Ruin Your Financial Life." Stein uses reverse psychology to give financial advice to readers. Stein told CNN's "American Morning" he does not completely buy the theory that money does not buy happiness. "I've known an awful lot of poor people, and I've know an awful lot of rich people," Stein says. "And the rich people generally are happier."

Ben is right. Being wealthy will not make you a better person or more satisfied necessarily. However, only a fool thinks that having enough money is not important. We live in a society ruled by the greenback and having good financial skills is important. And let's be totally honest, who wouldn't want to never have to worry about money again.

Had another thought this morning about a friend of mine. He's a great guy and one of my best friends. I'll call him George. George finished his programming degree with spectacular grades while working 50 hours a week, being married, and raising two beautiful kids. I am so impressed by him. And like most new programmers with degrees he can't find a job right now.

George has a stellar idea for a human resources software package. He has the brains and skill to produce it I'm quite sure. He's even imagined it all the way to the packaging. He wants to produce it as a resume to show people what he can do. And if he can sell it along the way that's an added benefit. Even better idea. But he hasn't done it. I'm not sure why. And that thought brings me to this: All the good ideas and intentions in the world mean nothing if we don't act on them. Besides inspiration one must have motivation and then determination to carry it through. I hope George does carry it through he deserves all the success in the world.

"I should not write so much about myself if there were anybody else whom I knew as well." Henry David Thoreau said it. And it's something that I now take to heart as I write. I've had a hard time writing fiction of late but I do know how to write about myself. I can tell the world, my story, in my own words. And perhaps through writing about myself I can bring new life to all the characters in my head. Put all the ideas I have into real stories--something substantial. And prove to myself exactly what kind of writer I can be.

It's almost lunch time and I've still got FEEDSTER to test, kids to feed, and to get ready for work amongst other things. I did get a good workout in this morning too. It was only 75 minutes but included a lot of calisthenics and some basic weight training.

I'm gone.

-N-

Here's a small piece of dialogue only from my Hope City graphic novel.

Boy: "For an activist, you sure got a lotta weapons!"
Maya: "Don't worry about my weapons."
Boy: "I never seen a tree hugger who needed anger managment classes before."
Maya: "I'm not a tree hugger...I'm giving PEACE a chance....and you. Only you don't know it."

Tagline: She'll hug your tree then kick your ass. Maya is the only hope for a city that's ran out.

Never tried Feedster out before. Can't tell yet if it works with Live Journal however it does with BLOGGER. If this site does what I need. It will be great and the fact I don't have to download anything is a real plus. I see already that future search engines may incorporate Feedster type functions. Here's the link: Feedster. I'll let you know later how it goes.

Moving on is a simple thing. What it leaves behind is hard. --Megadeth

There is something wrong with you. There is something wrong with me. There is nothing left us. And there is nothing I can do...hey, this was my life. Hey, this was my fate. --Megadeth

Up until now, been a busy week and weekend. Kalisa is at her mom's doing crafts. Jake is eating some of my famous broccoli cheese soup (this time with my home made dumplings instead of Kluski noodles), Lacey is taking a nap, Kayla is in the shower, and Marinda is watching Dexter. Thought I'd take a moment to post.

Let's see. In no particular order: Yesterday, I worked 5 hours of overtime but then shut the department down once I had solved all the outstanding problems, tracked the freight, and no more incoming sales calls were happening. I had Aikido practice with Michael. Mailed out the second issue of my APA zine. Downloaded Yugi-Oh rules for Kayla. Emailed some things to Andrew Lane (CM of the APA)...we're working on an experimental collaboration (which looks like it will be a lot of fun. Andrew is so cool.). Balanced the check book. Watched Open Range and The Cat in the Hat with the kids. Both were really good. Bought dinner, rented the videos, went to the ATM, and the gas station. Also read a chapter in The Pool of Fire.

While I was at work Saturday it appears a man who was "laid off" stopped by and the kids paid him to mow our lawn. Of course, he mowed about two strips of grass, "ran out of gas", and never returned. They paid him before he started because they felt bad for him. The innocence of children. News flash: I hate this town. Ripping off kids like that who were trying to help. Probably another Meth head like the one that stole my car. He best pray that I don't find him.

Today, I finished mowing the lawn in the rain. Took out the garbage. Bathed the kids. Washed dishes. Made lunch. Did laundry. Played with an electronics set with the kids. Now, I'm writing this and will get back to dishes and laundry in a minute. The kids and I will watch FOX tonight since there should be some new episodes of Simpons, Malcom, and the like. And later tonight, more reading and possibly a little writing.

Also did a little web surfing this afternoon, reading a bit more of Scott's archives. Over the past couple of weeks I've been reading his archives bit my bit an eventually will read them all. The section I just read is extremely intersting because it was written at the opening of the current Iraq war. Scott's a talented guy. If you haven't already. Check him out.

Tomorrow is my late day at work. I don't have to be there until 15:30 and my wife gets up with the kids. So, I'm sure I'll get a good work out in before working. My other goal tomorrow is to finally get a BLOG READER downloaded.

Jake is getting fussy, I better go. More later.

-N-

Rock the Nation tour with KISS.

Seems like the ever revolving line up of KISS is at it again with this year's ROCK THE NATION tour. What ever. Opening act of POISON. GAG! Pass the puke bucket please! Perhaps the only good thing to say about this tour is that it seems Paul and the boys will be finally changing their stale set list and "shaking it up" a bit with rare gems. Of course, those songs have yet to be revealed.

KISS hasn't been the same for me since my brother took me to what should of been called the NOT FAREWELL tour. Mike paid $70.00 for my seat so we could hear the same set list give or take two songs that we heard at the REUNION tour which was $25.00 less. In fact it was the near same set list, we'd heard several other times as well. REVENGE was their best tour in my mind. The Statue of Liberty gimmick with the the dancing ladies ruled.

In other KISS news, Paul and Gene will both have new solo albums out before the end of the year.

I am again thinking of a conversation my brother and I had at Aikido practice last Saturday. He said $600.00 more a month is a life style change. And as usual, he's right. We're really struggling right now and I fear finances will pull us under. I'm trying to think of ways to raise more money for my family and myself without going back to working at Burger King on the side part time. I'm not sure that I have any self employment skills right now (or maybe I do but I haven't figured them out yet). I've done research on work from home type things but have yet to find one that really interests me. I just need a good idea. One good idea that I can pursue. I'm amazed at my own job of how many people do things on the side. One woman works full time in our office, is a real estate agent and has a business creating webpages. A supervisor of mine also is a real estate agent, has a business selling Christmas related items, and her and her husband own a photography business. Still another supervisor on the side breeds dogs. Another lady, makes home made teddy bears and sells Mary Kay. Outside of work, I know someone who sells $500.00 (profit) a month worth of embroidery on E-Bay. Anyway, you get the idea. I'm not sure what I can do on the side but there must be something. I'm even willing to pay to get training for it. Ideally, I need a side project that I really enjoy doing and that is flexible. I am hoping it wouldn't take more than 8 hrs a week but that may be a pipe dream. Does anyone at all have any ideas that might help me or know of any good books I could read/websites that I could visit?

Thanks much.

Matt this time, not Nobius

"Each word has a place to be said and a time to be said." --Ramin Setoogh

Hmm...I better make this quick. I have an APA newsletter to finish. My current Blue Rabbit Chronicles revolves around creativity and lack of creativity. Inspiration and Writer's Block. Ying and Yang...my child...:).

I've been thinking a lot lately about getting into programming again. Though I was never a great programmer, I did create a few really cool programs back in the day. I've probably mentioned this before but I created amongst other things a KABOOM knock off that was ten times better than the original. I loved customizing other people's programs too and designing programs as well. I have an itch to get back into DATABASES and I was good with DBASE at one time in the STONE AGE. Though I'm not sure what I could learn or what I could do with the skills, it would sure be neat to try. I'm shocked at what sells these days. My wife has an addiction to YAHOO games that you can buy and download off their portal. One of which was Clue clone. Now, who couldn't do that? And we paid twenty bucks for it! LOL Anyway, kind of like this BLOG, even if I don't become good at programming...learning how to do it will be a mind expanding experience.

My desire to get back into databases might be related to my love of information. When I was a kid, I wanted to be an information broker for a while. Maybe it's not too late.

One of my pet peeves is logging into a website that is not updated, link-rot, etc. Especailly business related websites. I always say to myself, "You could do better." This could be my chance to prove it. Never understood why someone would have a website and not keep it updated.

Also, as you know from other posts. I am sick of computer programs designed by computer programmers. LOL. In other words, designed by people who have not done the job or who are very technical minded. At work, we have some of the worst user interfaces I've ever seen. For that past year, they have been reprogramming our quote/order entry system for our transportation products and it quite frankly stinks. On top of that, it doesn't work with anything else. So, basically I am logging into about 5 different systems frequently to do one task. This bothers me. Systems should be as easy and as quick as possible for the user. Especially, in a time sensitive job like my own. Where a customer can call literally call hundreds of other competitors who can do the same move for about the same price. Or log into FEDEX.com and do nearly everything right from their own computer. The differentiation is in the customer service. And part of that is our computer system.

Our web interface to allow customers to book shipments on-line has been available for years. And it's never worked even close to correct since day one. It allows users to book moves that are impossible, book air shipments for hazardous materials (which we don't do), book shipments at a lower rate than if they talked to a rep, etc. And what amazes me is that fact that I don't really think this system was ever tested. It was just released into the wild and then other technology priorities were started. The website has been had many of the same problems for the four years I've been at BIG CORPORATE GIANT.

Technology is one of the keys to my company's survival. Management knows this, but it seems to me, most of management doesn't really understand it yet. But they will. Or we will all be out of a job.

BLOGGER is another good example of a great product suffering from a terrible user interface. I've had templates mysteriously vanish, BLOGSPOT crashes, etc, etc. The online help is poor and in most cases seems to assume you know a certain amount about BLOGGER or HTML in general. I'd love to design a BLOGGING program that combines the best aspects of BLOGGER, BLOG THIS, BLOG LINES, and LIVE JOURNAL. Including having off line posting software, friend lists, intuitive help, built in commenting/page counters, and user groups. While still giveing you the option to use your own custom HTML.

Today I'm also thinking about down the road creating a customized/personalized self defense system and then teaching it. I don't know how many hours I've spent learning martial arts skills that I feel, I would probably never use. I'd prefer a martial arts system that trains by way of what you're defending yourself from. Are you defending from a mid-section punch? A knife? A club? A bat? A gun? A street fighter? Etc? Not quite sure, how to put it all together but in time I will. I also like the idea of "Street Aikido" and pressure points. Martial arts is a discipline but let's be realistic...most people get into it to defend themselves. And I've been held up a gun point before, I know what powerless feels like. I'll start logging these ideas in my journal a long with the rest of my creative ideas.

I'm getting the feeling that this year's presidential elections will again be just another useless caucus and things that matter will never change.

I am very pleased with the amount of hits this BLOG has been getting. I hope everyone enjoys it as much as I do. Please use the comments or email me, I want to know who is reading. If you have a site, I want to read it too. I'm always looking to trade links as well--let me know.

There is so much more I want to tell you but I need to get back to my APA submission. Now I can write in peace, now that my brain is empty.

I leave you with this small piece:

"Sand Magic"
Sand magic from your hands.
Life's magician.
Airborne grains.
Our time is thrown to the wind.
Before this world dies,
In a secret machine,
A place of hiding,
Whisper love for me.
The only thing that matters.
Behold all of our parts.
Shadows remember
The way the future wasn't.

I've met a lot of really neat people through this BLOG. Here's a link to: Datagrid Girl. You can even rent her...:) Now, what I really need to know, is how do I become a Datagrid Girl?

The Tarantino lowdown on 'Kill Bill'

The first Kill Bill was excellent. Sounds like the next one will live up to the hype as well, I can't wait to see it. And everytime I see Tarantino I wonder how a video clerk becomes a block buster movie creator. What vision compels him that so many others (like myself) can not see? What focus and drive lies in his mind? If only we could get in the brain and pick it. Some people are destined for greatness, Tarantino was one. And maybe the difference between him and I is that vision.

Anthrax

Catch up with Anthrax...who's 'The Sound of White Noise' and 'Persistence of Time' are two of my favorite albums....ever.

Mustaine To Ulrich: 'Everything You Touch Turns To Gold & Everything I Do Backfires'.

Great article. Especially when you take into context that Metallica has sold over 90 million albums worldwide (more than the Beatles) and Dave (ex-Metallica, founder of Megadeth) Mustaine has sold 15 million more. Don't be fooled, metal is big, mean, and bad. And this article, about scenes from the upcoming Metallica documentary where Dave Mustaine and Lars Ulrich finally confront their pasts should be great. I always wondered how Mustaine felt about the whole situation. Especially since I felt he was the best musician (but not vocalist) and lyricist of the bunch.

Hatebreed To Play Summer Dates With Slayer, Judas Priest.

Speak of the devil. Interesting choice of touring partners for Priest. Will Rob and the boys finally embrace their heavy side? I hope so. Or will they stick to the same old schtick like all the other hard rock/metal acts from that era? I've yet to see any possible set lists from the upcoming Judas tour but I do own 3 live albums from the band and even when Ripper was fronting the band the set list was much more alike than different. It's for that very reason, I'll probably never see KISS again. You seen 'em once, you seen 'em a thousand times.

Scott mentioned this link on his BLOG. It's great. Your love personality test. Here the results of mine. It seems I'm committed, loving, and a male sl*t. Hmm...no surprises there but it was fun to take.

Not sure if you've seen them yet. But yesterday at Toys 'R US, I saw TV Games for the first time. TV Games by JAKKS Pacific recreate old school video games like Circuis Atari and Break Out in one neat package (the Atari 2600 version comes with 10 games) that includes a retro joystick and wires right into your audio in/out of your TV or VCR. No video console or cartriges required, the games are actually on a circuit board in the joystick. The Activision version includes the original Pitfall and River Raid games. Each model is priced at $20.00 and highly portable. I can't wait go pick up a few of these!! When I tried out the Atari one at the store, I couldn't believe how responsive the joystick was either...not the case with my original 2600. I can see this concept going far.

Are you using a BLOG reading program? I desperately need one, so I stop wasting so much time surfing the Internet. Ron recommends BLOG LINES. Anyone agree or disagree? I basically need one that will let me know when the BLOGS I read update, most of those BLOGS reside on BLOGGER or LIVE JOURNAL but not all.

Thanks.

Time lists 'most influential' people.

Hey, what about me?

Today I received my 2000th hit on this BLOG...:)

More later.

Kill mom but don't hurt TV, teen tells hitman.

Isn't it refreshing to know how much our kids care about the family valuables? Kind of reminds me of my family....you know that family that put the *FUN* in dysfunctional!

I'm trying to whittle down the stack of books on my TO READ list. If only, I could get 'all the time in the world' to read. Like in that episode of the Twilight Zone. You remember...the one with Burgess Meredith.

Right now my TO READ stack includes:
A Wrinkle in Time
A Swiftly Tilting Planet
A Little Princess
Sex and the Single Vampire
The Short Victorious War
The Pool of Fire

Half those books belong to my daughter Kayla's (not the Vampire book though...lol) but ahh....a good story knows no age limits. Now, if I could only read faster....:) Perhaps a speed reading/comprehension course is in order.

What are you reading? What are your favorite books and authors?

This post is not aimed at anyone specific. But read it and hopefully you'll get my drift.

No, I'm not an intellectual nor am I trying to act like one. I'm only trying to act like me. Intelligent and proud but not too proud to tell you who I really am and what I really like. No, I'm not looking to read or listen to the next IQ raising experience, I'm looking to read or listen to things I enjoy. That enjoyment may be of things fun, macabre, gross, juvenile, smart, or just plain weird. Doesn't matter. Our likes are part of our expression, part of us. The point of all this? Don't be fake. If you like Judas Priest, say you like Judas Priest. Who fricking cares? I don't. Judas isn't Mozart, it was never meant to be either. In fact, in retrospect, it's more like bubble gum metal music. But JP riffs and shreds like nobody's business. Which is why I like them. However, right now as we speak, I am contemplating reading "War and Peace". To say I did it. To understand what it is. I hear that it's a good book. This is a choice. It's not be trying to make you think I'm smarter than you. Or smarter than anyone else. The beauty of being human is we can be and love so many things at once. You can love Teen Titans cartoons and Tolstoy. Or Bugs Bunny and Issac Asimov. Again I say: Who cares? Be who you are. Like what you like. You can't run away from what you are. Don't even try. But if you do, please pass me by. Condescending smart people and fake intellectuals need not stop here.

Have a nice day.

Love,

Nobius

Two songs currently rotating on my brainwave radio station. Can't get either of them out of my head. The first one is Linkin' Park's "Lying from You" and the other is Seether's "Out of my Way". If I could make music, these are the types of songs I'd write, sing, and live.

"Lying from You" by Linkin' Park

When I pretend that everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
When I pretend to forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can
But I can't pretend this is the way it'll stay
(I'm just trying to feel myself)
I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be

So I'm lying away from you
(No, no turning back now)
I want to be closed inside so let me go
(No, no turning back now)
Let me take back my life
I'd rather fight all alone
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own cause I can't see
(No, no turning back now)
The very worst part of me is me

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condesending talk of who I outta be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person really is me and I'm
(Trying to fill the truth)
Before I push some more I'm pullin away because
(I'm lying away from you)

This is the part I've wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me, like this
This isn't what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me.

"Out of My Way" by Seether

Out of my way!
Out of my... way!

I can't pass up this opportunity
To make myself observed
I can't pass up this opportunity
To let myself be heard

Would you... like to... be the one who sees me lose this all?
Would you... like to... be the one who sees me FALL?!

Nobody's gonna stand in my way
Give it up son, I'm doing this my way
Nobody's gonna stand in my way
Give it up son, I'm doing this my way

You like to think the worst is over now
But you can't breathe at all
You like to think you're owed a favour now
And you've seen it all

Did you... want to... be the one who pushed me off the wall?
Did you... want to... be the one who let me FALL?!

Nobody's gonna stand in my way
Give it up son, I'm doing this my way
Nobody's gonna stand in my way
Give it up son, I'm doing this my way

You can't hold me down
You can't hold me down
You can't hold me down
You can't hold me down

I can't pass up this opportunity
To make myself observed
I can't pass up this opportunity
To let myself be heard

Would you... like to... be the one who sees me lose this all?
Would you... like to... be the one who sees me FALL?!

Nobody's gonna stand in my way
Give it up son, I'm doing this my way
Nobody's gonna stand in my way
Give it up son, I'm doing this my way
Nobody's gonna stand in my way
Give it up, I'm doing this my way
Nobody's gonna stand in my way
Give it up, I'm doing this my... WAY!

OUT OF MY WAY!!!

Finished the first issue of Bite Club last night. It's outstanding. It's something like the Sopranos meet Dracula. Check it out: Bite Club.

Lawmaker moves to block Google's Gmail.

I love useless legislation. Instead of government spending money on real problems-- let's assault Google on a free product to consumers. Let's protect the people from something they don't need protection from. Google has in no way hid it's intentions with it's soon to be unveiled G-mail service. If you don't like that it stores and scans your email then don't use it. It's really that simple. Of course, I hope you don't mind that the NSA has been scanning your email and telephone calls for years. Real privacy died fifty years ago my friends.

Two words: Tomorrow sucks.

Stoned Angel.
Stoned Angel.
Wing of Eyes blinking.
A Tribe of our Body.
We are the children,
The city forgot.

They took our love,
To feel our hate.
Pressure cooking
Unstable molecules.
We all explode.

Your lover's ghost speaks in the dark.
Ear whisper melodies.
"This is the joy.
This is art.
Shape it no matter where you stand.
Create it no matter where you are."

I come from Lands of Frost,
Society Cold.
A near myth forsaken.
Where no one cries for the poor man
In the cardboard box
On the corner.
The end of dignity.
Frozen in the night.

I know--the world must hear these words.

Time is a four letter word.
Be wary of he who counts on it.
And though my city is dying.
I still have feelings.
I still love it.
No matter what.

Stoned Angel.
Stoned Angel.
Wings of Eyes blinking.
Kiss the fool who loves
A world that left him behind.
Soon the Gravestones will say,
The Epitaph will read,
"They did it to themselves.
Land of the free.
Home of the brave.
God Bless America.
May she rest in peace."

When we forget our neighbor,
We forget ourselves.
And then it comes to be.
A tribe of our Body.
A near myth forsaken.
Then forgotten.

Cartoon Network just played chapters 1 - 20 of the Clone Wars animated microseries. I really enjoyed the ending with General Grievous, the light saber wielding robot, who will be in Episode III. You can check out more info here: Clone Wars. I know I've said it a hundred times already but I'm truly hoping Lucas can put some life back into the stale franchise with Episode III. If that fails, at least more of Natalie Portman running around in tight spandex....:) It's a shame what has become of the movie series that inspired me to love science fiction. Episode III comes out the day after Kalisa's birthday next year. She said if I really love her I'll wait one week to see it...:) Anyway, I am a bit excited about the new movie. I stopped reading all the spoilers (just some now) and cancelled my subscription to Star Wars: Insider. I won't buy the novelization until after I see the film. I'm hoping for a few surprises this time unlike the last two.

You can read more about the General from the Star Wars Databank here: Grievous.

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Why is BLOGGER publishing other BLOGS to BLOGSPOT but when I publish I just get the old endless publishing loop error. And nothing updates on my site? Have I told you lately, how much I hate BLOGGER?

(UPDATE: It appears BLOGSPOT is down. The other BLOGS publishing are hosted somewhere else.)

On the lighter side (yes, I make it a point to laugh at least once a month whether I need to or not), Ron sent me a link that I'd almost forgotten about it. Anonymous confessions: Group Hug. Ha ha ha. Tonight's first one is so good, I almost fell out of my chair. I'd give a few away but why don't you go check 'em out yourself. Or maybe even confess.

Oh you're *WAY* too close.
My touchy feely loathing.
Stay out of my space.
Stay away.
Personal boundaries mean personal walls
When building a Great China Wall.

I am not beyond
Killing Friends
or Mensa Members.

Taking back the poetry.
Taking back my life.
Karma payment plan.
And it still hurts--
What he did to me.
In another head episode.
The face in the dream.

The universe is closed.
But you too can see Jesus.
It is the eleventh commandement:
Pay thy money at the door.
Full coffers mean full salvation.
Our God is better than their's.
We are better than them.
Beware the false peace.

Don't trust anyone.
Don't turn your back.
This is my head yelling.
Get out.
Stay away.
I am not beyond
Killing you.

I am always burning.
Poetry deadly--
Words on fire.

Being down-has me down.
Bipolar Chutes & Ladders
And I'm the one sliding.

Praying a disappointed faith
to a disappointed God.
Believing the things we can not see--
Care.

Turned down for the Prom.
Too fat.
Too ugly.
Who'd want to be seen with you?
Not an unfeeling man.

Dressing up to kill.
Smile, it's the end of the world.
Gasoline drenched and cheshire grin.
I am always burning.
In my mind.

This can't be happening.
Nobius-- stay away.
You are not real.
Nor am I.

I'd never heard of the Matthew Good Band before they showed up as one of the free tracks on Windows Media Player. "Apparitions" is a haunting ballad reminding me of the good bye suicide mystery that changed my family's life. God, don't let me be stuck here forever.

"Apparitions"

Say hello
Remain
Close to me
No good-bye suicide mystery

The rat
In your brain
Turns a wheel
Connected to your guts and
All your faults are in me
And all your faults in me

What would you say
If we lived on TV
Besides all the things they told you to
And all the things they told you to

We're stuck
Inside our own machine
Apparitions

Say hello
Well is it strange
Where you are
Where you used to be kind of free
Are they laughing at you
Laughing at you

The rat
In your brain
Rules the world
From the comfort of your living room
Tell me are we leaving soon
The comfort of your living room
Tell me are we leaving soon

We're stuck
Inside our own machine
Apparitions

We're stuck
Inside our own machine
Apparitions

What if your heart stopped but the music didn't? --Johnathon Carroll

Sodium Penathol was an idea I had. --Anthrax

I don't know how it feels inside. I can't decide --Days of the New

You smoked with the ghost in the back of my head. --Lisa Loeb

Tried to do the things you told me but each time I got lost. --Blue Man Group

All your faults are in me. --Matthew Good Band

Can I get you something? Yesterday, would be nice. --Katy Segal

The very worst part of me is you. --Linkin Park

Dirt and Truth

Seconds. Moments pass.
Until there are none.
In our lifetime,
He wrote sins in the sand
With Holy fingers.
And all of the names,
All of the questions,
For Him
King of Mud.

Rain always falls.
Dirt Bibles always wash away.
The truth will fall down walking.
A state of unknowing
On a seething Earth.
Unanswering.
Unholy.
Cry for me desperately.

The panic hand hits the panic button.
Counting from infinity-
Continue to none.
We're all gone.
Man's laughter became man slaughter.
In a mushroom cloud surprise.

Still it's hard to forget,
A princess in mourning or
A God who doesn't speak.
Today, I am the King!
The King of Mud.
Calling from my cave,
"Dirt truths wash away!"
And I'm never coming out again.

Books R. Southern's Read

My friend Rat Southern has this very neat concept on his site. He lists the books he's read with help of a database. Very cool idea that I might just lift...:) If he doesn't mind..or SPAM me...lol. I wonder how he created the page? I'll have to ask him.

I can't love you anymore, I'm scared of the sound of it. And woman I just wanted more. -- Oleander

This is the lone song running through my head and my MP3 player at 1 a.m. in the morning. Tomorrow: another day, another dollar. Kids will need dressed. wives will need help. Chores will need done. Customers served. Less time for me, more for them. And when I question myself, and my life, my success and my lack there of--I try to remember the wise thing someone once told me. You can judge the quality of a person by simply looking at the company he keeps. My company is usually my family. My beautiful wife and my oldest brother are my best friends. My kids are my constant companions, who God has given me and then honored me with the title: Dad. It is my greatest pleasure, just to see one of them smile. Life isn't so bad. And if you're reading this Kalisa, my dear--I'm lucky to have you. Off to bed now even though the lone song plays on in my mind. As long as I'm not alone.

In a recent article in U.S. News, Lou Dobbs mentioned these facts but our "not much of a choice" candidate for President.

"...Democrats will vote for a Skull & Bones Yale-graduated millionaire. And Republicans, following party lines, will also vote for a Skull & Bones-graduated millionaire...Bush advocates a guest worker program for illegal aliens, while Kerry just wants to provide amnesty to many of them. Bush signs costly fee-trade agreements, while Kerry votes for and supports them. The federal budget deficit has soared to half a trillion dollars under Bush, while Kerry proposes an additional quarter trillion in new federal spending."

Lou, I couldn't agree with you more. But you know what they say, "Government ceases to exist when politicians learn to bribe the people with their own money (tax money)." And it seems they have.

X-files resist or serve.

Great review of the "X-files: Resist or Serve" game. Unfortunately, I don't have a PS-2...here's hoping an X-Box or a PC version comes out soon. Sounds like the game even includes the romantic tension between Dana and Mulder. Of course, how couldn't there be tension running around with the beautiful Gillian Anderson...especially if she has that sensuous long hair from the final season of X-files...:) I really miss that show, and am hoping they do a second movie. I think the last two seasons were actually my favorite except for the finale. Doggit rocked!