Thoughts fall out before the head explodes!
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Monday, May 30, 2005
Turn It All Off
"I hope he never lets me down again." --Depeche Mode
"Once I had my heroes, once I had my dreams...the truth is not that comfortable." --Moby
I love my family. Each little angel. But sometimes, like a Radio turned too loud, I just want to turn them off. Turn if all off. Right now, I need to be left alone with pen and paper. It's time to work.
Instead, I'll feel guilt again.
-posted by Nobius 11:52 AM # Comments (2)
Friday, May 27, 2005
Chinese New year
Scary how accurate this is.
-posted by Nobius 9:47 PM # Comments (0)
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
"Still you feed us lies from the table cloth....Why don't presidents fight the war? Why do they always send the poor?" -- System of A Down
Gifted killer sweet memory,
Everytime I have one,
Another piece dies.
Further we drift.
Coil snake crushing
Just means we're in love.
Poetry is self...
I stand in flood and
Blood you spilled.
Just look the other way.
I chose to live.
I did it for Mom.
But what did I do for me?
And what should I do now?
(Never let me down.)
There's more to say,
But we've been here before.
All ghosts love words.
No more Poetry.
No, not tonight....
Small God set me free.
(They say you're inside.)
Or when we fall,
Do we fall...
-posted by Nobius 10:16 PM # Comments (0)
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Thursday, May 19, 2005
"All I ever wanted, was a place to call my own...to miss me when I'm gone." --Shinedown
"I'm a turtle in a shell composed in it's totality of my work and me." --Joan Payne Kincaid.
Life pulls me down,
I convince myself--I'm just wading.
How do you separate the drop
From a sea of souls?
We are all under/a part.
Where is the stone,
The Pillar of our world?
Someone must stand above.
I've been searching my whole life.
I am but a
Them answers don't come easily.
Grace of One.
When my name was Matthew
I died for your sins.
Did nothing wrong
But felt guilt constant.
Jesus is hemorrhaging everywhere
(Get Him out of here!)
He yanked my soul
Right through my damn neck.
I am but a
(Same as you love.)
I won't be comin' back.
I won't be comin' home ever.
You and your fate are not in my hands
(I'm no savior!)
Or anyone else's.
(All my suffering.)
I bled for You,
Now I bleed You.
-posted by Nobius 10:04 PM # Comments (2)
Monday, May 16, 2005
Ministry Of Space Issue #1 Script
Warren gives us the script to Ministry of Space #1. Thank you Warren! It's one of the best science fiction comics ever written but in a totally different vain than his magnum opus Transmetropolitan.
Warren is posting the script for free but is asking for donations to pay for bandwidth. A rent party so to speak, since he doesn't use corporate sponsorship for his site.
In other Warren news, I ordered Desolation Jones #1 today and asked my comic store to pull it for my ongoing order. I hear it's a strong book. I'll let you know.
-posted by Nobius 4:02 PM # Comments (2)
Read: What Color Is Your Parachute
Finishing up the last of my Free Comic Book Day stuff and then I'm going to read What Color is Your Parachute? Everyone I know who has ever read it, tells me it's full of great advice for people searching for a new job like myself.
Today I'm thinking I'd like to own a publishing company. What a perfect career for me. And I'm not talking about just publishing my poetry, etc. I'm talking about publishing comics, magazines, books. Hmmm...more on this later.
-posted by Nobius 8:58 AM # Comments (0)
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Read: Fear Itself/The Radiance of Pigs
"Am I too lost to be saved? My God, My Tourniquet, Return to me Salvation." --Evanescence
Finally finished Stan Rice's The Radiance of Pigs and Fear Itself. Few poets can match Rice's ability to be both vulgar and gorgeous, poignant yet surreal in the same set of lines. His words are stark truth and ring like a bell through the soul.
Now, to decide which of my unread books to move on to next. I'm off work tomorrow and want to spend some time with my books. Like I did when I was young--before the world began. Tomorrow, I am Burgess Meredith alone with my reading. By closing the door to my room and shutting the world out, I'm buying a ticket to my own Twilight Zone.
-posted by Nobius 10:26 PM # Comments (0)
"The proportion of left-handers in Britain has increased more than fourfold over the past 100 years and may rise further, bringing a sure of musical, mathematical, and sporting prodigies." --Johathan Leake and James Grimston, the Sunday Times, March 17, 2002.
Nobius is left handed.
-posted by Nobius 3:07 PM # Comments (3)
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Beautiful Women I Have Never Met: A Meme
Inspired by Ron and just for fun, I'm going to make a list of some of the most beautiful women I have never met. From time to time, I'll come back and update this list. And as you'll see I have a real thing for newscasters. A really big thing. I hope my wife doesn't mind.
LOL...of couse she doesn't, she's gorgeous!
This list has no other merit other than physical beauty. Eye Candy may not be filling but all men want a piece. :) Okay, that didn't come out quite right.
Here goes, in no particluar order:
The Most Beautiful Women I Have Never Met: A Meme
Rita Hayworth (Actress)
Angelina Jolie (Actress)
Tyra Banks (Model)
Laurie Dhue (Fox Anchorwoman)
Stepanie Shaefer (Local Cleveland Newswoman)
Denise Dufala (Local Cleveland Newswoman)
Paula Zahn (CNN Anchorwoman)
Tracy Bingham (Model)
Catherine Zeta Jones (Actress, T-Mobile spokeswoman)
Jennifer Aniston (Actress)
Jessica Biel (Actress)
Jessica Alba (Actress)
Britney Spears (Singer)
Jane Snow (Fox Newscaster)
Carol Chandler (Local Cleveland Newscaster)
Kathy Ireland (Model)
Elle McPherson (Model)
Jessica Rabbit (She's not bad, she's just drawn that way!)
Halle Berry (Actress)
Aria Gionvanni (Model/Porn Star)
Amy Dumas a.k.a. Lita (WWE Diva/Wreslter)
Amy Lee (Lead Singer Evanescence)
Pamela Anderson (Actress)
Brooke Burke (Model)
Marilyn Monroe (Actress)
Teri Hatcher (Actress)
Christina Rici (Actress)
Julia Roberts (Actress)
Katie Couric (NBC Newswoman)
Juliette Huddy (Fox Newswoman)
Lauren Green (Fox Newswoman)
Sela Ward (Actress)
Jenna Jameson (Porn Star)
Tori Amos (Singer) *--I have seen her in concert from twenty feet away.
Shania Twain (Singer)
Faith Hill (Singer)
Jennifer Lopez (Singer, Actress)
Lauren Graham (Actress)
Alexis Bledel (Actress)
Hillary Duff (Actress)
Jeri Ryan (Actress)
Natalie Portman (Actress)
Linda Carter (Actress)
Kristian Alfonso (Actress)
Charisma Carpenter (Actress)
Eliza Dushku (Actress)
Julia Roberts (Actress)
Christie Brinkley (Model)
Drew Barrymore (Actress)
Alison Stewart (MSNBC Newswoman)
Amy Robach (MSNBC Newswoman)
Fredricka Whitfield (CNN Newswoman)
E.D. Hill (Fox News)
Jennifer Garner (Actress)
Angie Everhardt (Model)
Elizabeth Hurley (Actress)
Tia Carrera (Actress)
Demi Moore (Actress)
Kelly Preston (Actress)
Jane Skinner (Fox News)
Julia Styles (Actress)
Jessica Simpson (Singer)
Keira Knightly (Actress)
Kathleen Turner (Actress)
Kate Beckinsale (Actress)
Charliz Theron (Actress)
Paula Abduhl (Singer)
Trish Stratus (WWE Wrestler)
Billie Piper (Actress)
-posted by Nobius 11:11 PM # Comments (0)
Bloggers' conference emphasizes tools of reporting. Would of loved to have attended. Blogging is citizen journalism at it's best.
-posted by Nobius 10:11 PM # Comments (0)
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
"No one has the right to ruin your happiness." --Carolyn Boykin
And the job search continues as I got turned down for another job today while being told by my current employer that I'm too "emotional" for a promotion. (But they'll work with me...ya right.) I know I wear my heart on my sleeve sometimes, but if it was that bad why didn't someone ever say anything before?
This whole thing weighs on my self esteem as I try hard not to identify my sense of being by my career. Or lack of one. I keep telling my heart, I'm worth more than a paycheck.
I did email my resume out to two more potential employers tonight and posted my resume on Monster.com. I have to keep tyring.
I got the best advice on this whole thing from a friend of mine named Lillian. She said, "Don't get upset over the troubles of millionaires. They get richer and what do you get?" She's absolutely right. What do I get?
And now I'm finding myself asking, "How do I get a better life?" I seem to have never found a copy of the book on that. I seem to only have a nack for making other people rich.
But maybe, just maybe that can change. And if it can't, I wan't to die knowing I tried. Knowing I gave it by best damn shot. Regret is the one thing I can not live with.
-posted by Nobius 11:36 PM # Comments (3)
What Do Your Dreams Mean?
-posted by Nobius 11:10 AM # Comments (0)
Sunday, May 08, 2005
What does your birth date mean?
Hmmm....I like this one.
-posted by Nobius 8:52 PM # Comments (0)
What Does Your SAT Score Mean?
Hmm....a lot of good it did me.
-posted by Nobius 8:44 PM # Comments (0)
How Liberal or Conservative are You?
This one is nearly right on the money. I'm fisically conservative and socially moderate when it comes to politics.
-posted by Nobius 8:41 PM # Comments (0)
Needed more questions on this BLOGTHING but it's accurate except for the woodworking garbage.
-posted by Nobius 8:31 PM # Comments (0)
How Geeky are You?
-posted by Nobius 8:16 PM # Comments (0)
More Good News
Amazon just emailed me back with the answer to why I couldn't log in. And it worked! It seems my kids reset my computer's clock and for whatever reason that was the problem. Remember, if you order through my Amazon links and send me an email, I'll refund you fifty percent of my commission when I get paid!
-posted by Nobius 12:20 PM # Comments (0)
Good News Bad News
Good News: Rick Gehardt is sending me free comics. He might send you some too, check out his site!
Bad News: I can't log into Amazon Associates. I'll let you know how fast customer service gets back to me. Or if like Pay Pal...never. LOL.
Good News: I have most of my next BRC rewritten after a hard drive crash.
Bad News: I have to get my resume finished because I should be interviewing within the next several days.
Good News: I have an excellent idea to make money on the side. I'll be posting about it later and some of you who can help me, I may be asking for your help and opinions. I'm really fired up on this and can't figure out why I didn't try it before.
Bad News: The world is going to end. But thankfully not today. :)
Good News: It's a beautiful day.
-posted by Nobius 9:55 AM # Comments (0)
Friday, May 06, 2005
Preshrunk: Commodore 64
When I was a kid, I always regretted buying that Coleco ADAM computer. Even if it did have a built in printer and a catalogable cassette drive. LOL. Here's a tribute to the orphan computer I should of bought Preshrunk: Commodore 64.
Ahh..the Commodore with all it's computing power was home to the greatest ever Archon!! Do you hear me TV Games? Time for a comeback man, with sixteen bits and all that.
-posted by Nobius 11:16 PM # Comments (0)
Free Comic Book Day
"We all have apocalypse dreams." --Nobius Black
"50% of writing is putting the first word on a piece of paper. 90% of success is showing up." --Woody Allen
Tomorrow is Free Comic Book Day again. Most comic shops will be participating. I had planned the release of my first chapbook: Rational Animals Book One: One Night Pig to coincide because it is also Free Zine Day. However since, my slate of recent computer crashes here at home that isn't going to happen. I haven't even rewritten my APA submission which I lost in my last computer crash and is now due.
In other news, I've been job hunting and think I'm going to get a decent offer. It won't pay quite enough but I think it could be a great stepping stone. I also have began to study for my self defense instructor certification.
James is going to run one of my poems in his zine. You'll have to get the zine to find out which one but I'll give you a hint...the beautiful Rita Hayworth makes a guest appearance.
I've been experimenting with other blogging software too which I'll post about later.
-posted by Nobius 9:28 AM # Comments (2)
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Read: Stan Rice
Normally, I'd show you pictures but now I'm having problems with Amazon. What is it about me and computer problems? They follow me like a black rain cloud...then I bitch like a hungry diabetic.
Just started reading Stan Rice's The Radiance of Pigs and Fear Itself. Rice is a genius--a dark lover of life. His brash style like a great lover will leave you wanting for more. After reading him, his poet's words will be etched on your heart.
What are you reading?
-posted by Nobius 10:12 PM # Comments (4)
Back to Abnormal
"...for God's sake either vote or make bombs." --Warren Ellis
"Success is not an entitlement. It has to be earned." --Howard Schultz
"Do you bite the hand that feeds you? Do you stay down on your knees?" --Nine Inch Nails
Got my email back.
Got my kung fu grip back.
Threw a few grenades in a guitar case, it's time reinact Desperado even if I'm not pretty like Antonio I still love Selma Hayek.
Gonna walk till I stop. Gonna write till I drop.
Time is ticking and I'm a bomb brother.
I'm back from the dead, back to abnormal and shit man.
-posted by Nobius 9:29 PM # Comments (0)
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
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